First Tom went to Asia, then Preston left for Hawaii, and today Jaspar is off to Tahoe. August has brought in summer vacations for everyone but me! Before I start sounding sorry for myself, I want to make clear that I am looking forward to spending sometime alone.
Loneliness is a fascinating experience, as it seems to leave me with the clearest perspective and yet also leads to longing and pain. I have long feared being alone, viewing it as a pitiful state of existence, meaning that no one wanted to hang out with me. But this view has transformed of late.
Over the past year I have made a number of crucial decisions that will determine the future of my life. Each of these decisions was made only after the console of the wisest people I know. However, I have come to see that the best decisions are made by quieting these, often conflicting, voices and listening to my own instincts. This is not always the case. But more often than not I lead myself in the right direction.
So this August, as I face the most crucial decision to date, I will sit alone under the tree in my backyard, plotting the strategy that will lead me to life I have long envisioned.